When I started my career here.. some people said that I have to help Malay students bcoz they have been treated unfairly by most of the racist chinese lecturers. It come accross to my mind that Chinese normally are very good and hardworking. Being an educator, I believe in being fair to everybody. Give and educate them full heartedly as what I had done before. Of course, the environment has change.. I'm now in the middle of Chinese community (90% chinese 10% Malays). In few of my classes I have 100% chinese students. And I started found that I'll be very lucky if I can understand their language. At the beginning, with problems that I faced with a chinese lecturer here.. I set my mind to help my own people.
When I started my class last few months, my perception towards chinese changed but for the malays.. it remains. Not all chinese students are hardworking, not everybody in the class are participative and not everybody comes from good family background. Some of them are just below average (based on my observation in class and their performance). However.. Malays are remain the same. Those who always absent are malays, those who have a lot of excuses are malays and those who are missing in action are also malays. A few of them came to me at week 10 just to say.. "Miss, my attendance very poor in your class. I probably being barred from final exam. Could you please help me?" Oh my goodness, if I think as Malay I should help Malays, that would not be the way. And my typical answer was " I want to help you, but if you don't want to help yourself, how could I? " Please don't absent any of my classes after this, otherwise I have to perform my responsibility as lecturer" Am I wrong to be very strict even to my own people?
Yesterday we started the class presentation for the semester. I never had any experience like this before. Too many groups volunteer themselves to be the first presenter. In 1 hour class where I expect max only 3 groups can present their reports.. 4 groups volunteered. and all of them are chinese... This morning, the class was supposed to start at 9am. I reached the class at 8.55am, 1 group already inside the room and offer themselves as the first presenter. I asked them to set their slides and surprisingly they said they came very early just to set up everything and test their slides.
Do you know what happened after the presentation? they came to me asked my feedback and comments or anything that I can suggest to ensure that they score the assignment. Those who have not presented came and asked which part of the previous presentations that they should or should not follow? Oh.. I forget to mention that there were a few groups submitted the report 2 WEEKS.. I repeat 2 WEEKS before the deadline. The reason is.. they want to focus on their mid-term and other assignments. And again, non of them are malays.
I'm not writing to tell everyone that now I'm being double standard to my own people or condemning my own people. But I want all my students who read this (IIC, OUM, MMC - majority are malays) to start thinking how these people who are not given any priviledge as Bumiputra in this country are hardly trying to change their life. In this chinese-dominated university where my own people are considered as minority, I can see that they are still sleeping. They don't feel that they have to compete and stay in complacent zone... It makes me upset and so far I think I failed to drive them on the right track.
Don't you think that one day they are the one who grab all the opportunities and you are still at the same stage, same standard of living. To my dear students... please change.
10 comments:
zkea,
a big dilema and for the sake of our race please ...do not give up.
rizal
Thank you for that word... as an academician, we should not give up rite...
Zkea MS,
Thts what I faced before, now its become your commitment and do have a passion to tune them..
to repeat what you said "no body can help them except themselves"
just give your best the rest is up to them...
kiah...haritu jumpe tak borak pun ngan ko kan....rase macam ramai sgt org nak borak heheh..kiah..umah aku kan kalau balik kg kuar highway tu try nak ingat umah ko yang maner tapi aku tak jumper..umah ko kat kag tu dah diturunkan semuakan?
Rumah aku tak turun semua lagi. Tapi dah berubahla dr versi original masa kita kecik-kecik dulu. Kalo ko nak cari.. ko tgk lepas Parit Markom yang ada pasar malam ari ahad tu.. dalam 1km dari situ rumah aku sebelah kiri.
aku bnyk kali gak nak try cam...cuba gambarkan samar2 ingatan zaman sekolah menengah aku... umah ko yang ader kawasan lapang tu ..tapi tak dapat...tak pe nanti balik raye aku tgk...lamer ke ko cuti raye?..maner tau boleh beraya..
Takpa... ko nak dtg.. kol jer. Aku cuti sampai 5hb.
mmg btul pun ape yg miss ckp tp bg sy senyap2, or lembab org melayu pun, hati kite insyaallah ttp pada malaysia tercinta.
dorg tu blum tentu lg. kdg2 ade muslihat tersendiri. mane tau..
itu pandangan sy. melayu malas mcm mane pon, kebanyakan ape yg dorg buat adelah demi bangsa, agama dan negara.
dorg tu buat pape mesti sbb kepentingan diri sendiri.
lagi 1, "racist" sebenarnye lebih patut di tuju kepada bangsa serb or yahudi. tak sesuai dipakai pada melayu, cina or india.
sory n TQ.
[senyap2, or lembab org melayu pun, hati kite insyaallah ttp pada malaysia tercinta]
-mungkin betul, tp org melayu dah tak boleh lembab dan senyap. Nanti kita ditindas..
[melayu malas mcm mane pon, kebanyakan ape yg dorg buat adelah demi bangsa, agama dan negara]
- kalau sayangkan bangsa.. jgn biar diri ketinggalan, tp kalau malas.. sah2 ketinggalan..
[dorg tu buat pape mesti sbb kepentingan diri sendiri]
- yup. semua org buat apa2 mesti fikir kpntgn sendiri trmsuklah kita. Tp org kita lbh suka fkr keseronokan bkn kepentingan.. itu bahaya.
Demi kemaslahatan dan kesinambungan bangsa... kita harus berubah.
p/s: Ayie ke ni? or syafrie?
Post a Comment